October 18th, 2002



I think I recently lost a thread of reality. A strand, a tie, a sliver...

I don't know exactly when or why, just that it seems to have happened.

It bothers me.

I wrote a paper a year or two ago about how reality is relative to the individual and how reality for any single person only exists within the range of their senses in a bubble-like shape... their sight, hearing, smell, touch, taste, and mind. And that what most people call "normal" and "sane" is actually just where the largest majority of those individual realities overlap and have common characteristics like so many Venn Diagrams (thanks to serennig for the recent Venn reference). And that "insane" people are just people whose bubbles of reality don't overlap as much as other people's.

I feel like my bubble has slid out of place a bit, shifted, somehow changed so that it's no longer overlapping somewhere it used to. I'm starting to feel like my mind is trapped inside the bubble my body's senses have created and maintain. Almost as if the shift has created a schism between my body's reality and my mind's reality, and that they're each operating independently at times to where my mind ignores my body, and vice versa.

I don't really feel like writing about examples of this here though, I'm not sure why.

I caught a bird the other day, then tossed it up in the air and it flew away, some girl asked me how I did it. Magic.

I want to be up in 3.5 hours for work, night.